Thursday, November 27, 2008

On a lighter note

Wow that was intense....On a lighter note....life has picked up for me... I have finally realized what it means to have true friends.  They are people who are always there for you before you need them and willing to drop anything to help you out.  I had always been that kind of friend but really found anyone willing to do that for me.  I have also come to realize that the best of friends want you for you craziness and antics rather than just brains and smarts.  Thought I would post that tiny realization to lighten the mood after my last post.....

What needs to be said....

I just got to thinking about my friend.  A few months back I wrote a post about it and here I am again thinking about it.  Change.....Change happens but not in the way we want it to, like winning the lottery or winning a house.  But like losing a beloved pet or a friendship.  Change is inevitable.  I love how I have changed in the course of this one year.  There are people in my life now that I would not trade for anything.  They have shown me what I have missed out on for the last couple of years.  They have also shown me what it is like to be carefree and not a crutch to someone else.  They don't depend on me all the time but have a shoulder ready for me to cry on if I need it.  We are all strong and independent but awesome together.

*******~

This is who I am, who I have become.  I just hope you can find out who you truly are and what you want to do with your life.  I cannot condone what you are doing but you needed to hear this.  You have screwed up your own life and need to change what you are doing.  Drugs, drinking, sex and quitting school is not the answer you have to stop.  Until you do I cannot be around you anymore.  I will miss our friendship but I know it is for the best.  If you ever need me contact me but don't subject me to being a crutch again.  I don't deserve it and you know that.  I maybe the only voice of reason that you hear in your life, I may also be the only one you will take to heart.  You were like my sister and kills me to see you doing this to yourself.  I was asked earlier this year to write a paper on drug addiction is a choice.  Right after I found out that you were back into drugs.  I wrote the paper and my professor realized something was wrong.  I was told it was some of my worst work when I said it was a little to personal, that my best friend was back into them I got a pass.  It has hurt me that I could never tell you this straight out but I AM DISAPPOINTED IN  YOU.  I DON"T CARE IF I SOUND LIKE A MOTHER!!!  This is how I feel and what you need to hear.  I would not needed it spelled out for me but a few weeks ago I was told by an old friend that I had changed and that it suited me.  I understood what they were saying and kept the changes.  But if I had been told the opposite I would have flat out asked what is not right, unlike you.  It tore me to shreds, bearing all of the weight of what you were doing and knowing that you had stopped listening to me.  I can't lie or hide it anymore.  My life was suffering while I was your crutch.  Now my life has taken off since we quit talking and I wanted you to know I still care but that you have to deal with some issues yourself.  Only you can change but if you don't want to that is fine.  Just don't end up dead in a ditch somewhere, and believe me that is where you are headed.   So that was all I had to say now deal with me.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Life is amazing. I have recently posted two on going stories on fictionpress.com!!! I love the stories but am not entirely sure if anyone else will. This is my first post in a few months, and I feel a bit ridiculous for forgetting this blogspot!! lol. If you want to check out my stories go to http://www.fictionpress.com/~thedolphinsmermaid and scroll down to the bottom and click on to read. If you want to read one please leave a review. I would be enormously greatful considering it is my birthday Saturday!!!

Anyways on with the post:

Why is it that people need to put others down in order to feel good about themselves? It is incredibly pointless. Life is not always about negatives it is about positives. People need to learn to see the light not always the darkness. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Always remember that. Even in the darkest of times there is a ray of hope. I know I sound too optimistic for usual but I am glad to have found something that makes me incredibly happy. Writing is starting to mean more to me than alot has in along time. It is a new way of expression for me, it makes me feel like I can do something right.

I hope that I will be able to create dramatic scenes, like a scene where a girl finds out something big and runs and keeps running until she gets to some place secret. Then the guy knows the exact place and goes to see her and fix it.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

I found these random thngs and thought how true.....

A good or best friend! (dedicated to my best friend aka my asfaawbffe)
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month. A best friend will throw you a tampon and push you in.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome!
Let's do it again!"

A conversation between a girl and her boyfriend: (I just thought it was sweet)
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: no
Girl: Do you think I'm pretty
Boy: no
Girl: which would you chose me or you life?
Boy: my life
Girl: If I were to walk away would you cry?
Boy: no
Girl: I heard enough
as she turns to walk away her boyfriend grabs her and says:
I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I would chose my life because you ARE my life and if you would walk away i wouldn't cry i would DIE!

(What every girl wants well at least me)
Find the guy that calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who'll lay under the stars for hours and listen to your heart beat.
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy that kisses your forehead,
who keeps your picture in his wallet,
who wants to show you off to the world even when your in sweatpants,
who holds your hand in front of all his freinds,
who thinks your beautiful without makeup,
one who is constantly telling you of how much he cares and how is lucky to have you,
THE one who turns to his friends and says THATS HER!
If he really exists, then WHY CAN'T I FIND HIM?A good or best friend!
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month. A best friend will throw you a tampon and push you in.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome!
Let's do it again!"
A conversation between a girl and her boyfriend:
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: no
Girl: Do you think I'm pretty
Boy: no
Girl: which would you chose me or you life?
Boy: my life
Girl: If I were to walk away would you cry?
Boy: no
Girl: I heard enough
as she turns to walk away her boyfriend grabs her and says:
I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I would chose my life because you ARE my life and if you would walk away i wouldn't cry i would DIE!
Find the guy that calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who'll lay under the stars for hours and listen to your heart beat.
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy that kisses your forehead,
who keeps your picture in his wallet,
who wants to show you off to the world even when your in sweatpants,
who holds your hand in front of all his freinds,
who thinks your beautiful without makeup,
one who is constantly telling you of how much he cares and how is lucky to have you,
THE one who turns to his friends and says THATS HER!
If he really exists, then WHY CAN'T I FIND HIM?A good or best friend!
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month. A best friend will throw you a tampon and push you in.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome!
Let's do it again!"
A conversation between a girl and her boyfriend:
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: no
Girl: Do you think I'm pretty
Boy: no
Girl: which would you chose me or you life?
Boy: my life
Girl: If I were to walk away would you cry?
Boy: no
Girl: I heard enough
as she turns to walk away her boyfriend grabs her and says:
I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I would chose my life because you ARE my life and if you would walk away i wouldn't cry i would DIE!
Find the guy that calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who'll lay under the stars for hours and listen to your heart beat.
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy that kisses your forehead,
who keeps your picture in his wallet,
who wants to show you off to the world even when your in sweatpants,
who holds your hand in front of all his freinds,
who thinks your beautiful without makeup,
one who is constantly telling you of how much he cares and how is lucky to have you,
THE one who turns to his friends and says THATS HER!
If he really exists, then WHY CAN'T I FIND HIM?

Friday, June 6, 2008

Me Ranting and Raving

Why is it that the minute I get happy in at school, at home, or happy in general, that my dad wants to move? I have been through it enough in life, first from SA to Foley to Beaumont to South Weber to SA. I was born in SA and moved away when I was 3 to Foley. Foley is like my second hometown, I grew up there for almost 6 years of my life. That is the second longest time period I have ever stayed in one city. Beaumont was one of my favorite places, but when I finally got settled in what I wanted there we moved to South Weber. Needless to say I found nothing that there that appealed to me. Competitive swimming was out of the question, tumbling classes were not exisit, dancing was fun until the teacher yelled at me one to many times, and cheerleading was nowhere in sight. Finally I found Choir, i feel in love with it, I would have been in concert choir for 8th grade if we had not moved. But moving back to SA was one of the happiest times of my life. I love it in SA and I don't want to move from it again, not so soon at least. I found dance at my high school and I found my true calling being an Elementary Teacher. I have also become very happy with my job, babysitting, I have 12 families I babysit for. They are all amazing and sweet, and they want me to stay here. None of them want me to move and I am with them. I want to be here, I love the life I have created for myself. I have finally found friends who know me for who I am and want to be around me. I have family here, my Great Uncle and he means the world to me. I refuse to move from my home to the middle of nowheres ville US. I was fine seeing the USA the Wal-Mart way, but there comes a time when I need a stable place not a move every few years, at least until I get my degrees. I can't stand living in a town that is on

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Story

I know this is really random but I was wondering if anyone else thought this was funny.
Please do not take it and call it your own.


What is going on? Who are these people? They just expect us to trust them immediately and do whatever they say to do? I absolutely hate people who refuse to answer my questions. Especially when my questions are so easily answered, with only a this or that. I can’t be expected to believe every person who comes into contact with me. How could I trust three strange men who just happened to show up inside my apartment? I sighed, Taylor was right I really had to stop watching CSI all the time, but it was like a late night addiction now. When ever I couldn’t sleep I would pop in the DVD and watch one episode, every single time I did I was reminded of the month Tay had ‘grounded’ me from watching it. Just because I worried to much meant nothing, she shouldn’t have left her phone behind. It was funny watching her reaction to my substitute show, Firefly. I had turned the volume up so loud the first night that she thought we were being shot at. She ran through the apartment in her pajamas, screaming “we are going to die. Who did you kill this time? I didn’t do it! The mafia is after me! Help me!” She eventually ran all the way to the courtyard by the fountains, where she finally stopped and turned glaringly back at me. I was laughing so hard, that I about fell down the stairs. Tay refused to talk to me for a whole two days, while everyone teased her about it. Needless to say I had a volume limit enforced on everything I watched.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

I wonder...

I wonder if a story I write from my imagination can be worth its own weight in gold to me. I certainly hope so. My imagination has never been perfect or close to perfect but I love it all the same. I am too much of a realist to be able to write a pure scifi story. I have to add elements of reality but then again I am too much of a hopeless romantic. I love little things in life that no one seems to care about. Someone remembers a very little detail you told them months ago and never brought up again. That is my definition of caring and showing you care, whether it be in a family way, sisterly way, brotherly way, friendly way or a I can't live without you way. It shows you care and want the best for them. I honestly do not know if my story will ever be finished but I certainly hope it will. I also do not know if I can make it exactly the way I want it, or if anyone else will think it is good. I certainly hope so. I know my family likes it, my best friend does and even my two not so close friends. But they all know me and I think it might make some at least my family a little biased. I need to find someone who can read it and tell me the blunt truth if it is good or not. I just don't want someone stealing it from me. I trust the people I have let see it and I believe what they say but I just wish someone other than them would be willing to help. Nothing againist you *Alice*!!!
Maybe I am just overthinking as usual but then again maybe I am paranoid. I do tend to rant and rave about stupid things for a while. Oh Well!!! This is me freaking out....as usual.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Random thoughts and Wishing

Finals are the most torturous invention that man has ever created in the history of schooling. Finals are pointless because some people do not test well therefore they may fail the test because they freak. I really do not like finals and do not want to take them. They hurt my feelings and use up precious hours of my life that I will never get back, no matter how hard I try. I also am one of those people who freaks out on the test. But I have been working hard to try and stop that and am succeeding more than I ever imagined. Other than that I honestly do not mind finals all that much.
Twilight, yes I know I mention that book every blog almost but it is my most favorite-est book in the whole wide world. I am officially by my asfaawbffe or best friend, called an obsessed fan Bella. And she is hence forth known as Alice the ummm….well I am still working that little part out. But I promise to figure it out for my sake and for my sanity. At least I need some resemblance of sanity.
This past week was so much fun. I go to spend most of it with my family, who I love so much that includes my two dogs and one cat.
I love to see movies and I can not wait for, you can probably guess it, Twilight to come out on Dec. 12, 2008. The trailer for Twilight the movie, will be or should be released next week May 9, 2008 before the movie Speedracer. But I am hoping beyond hope that the preview trailer will be shown at the sneak peek of Speedracer. It would make my life complete for like 3 minutes and make me feel perfect. That would be amazing when it happens for me I love twilight. Twilight is like oxygen I need it to live!!!! Lol I find that amusingly awesome.
“Time Passes. Even when it seems Impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls. But pass it does. Even for me.” Bella Swan from New Moon written by Stephenie Meyer.
This book is also known as my depression book. Lol. Mainly because I feel what Bella is feeling because I am so entranced by the beautiful writing.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Hmmmmm

I had a brilliant idea well my mom had a brilliant idea. As you probably know I am in love with the Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer. Well not in love perhaps but obsessed well not obsessed but entranced with them. So my mom so sweetly suggested that I write my own version, of what I would like to see happen in Breaking Dawn. This idea really excited me because I really want to see certain things happen in Breaking Dawn. I have been reading off of fan fiction are amazing. They each have different opinions on Bella’s wedding, her powers once she is turned into a vampire, how her first year of being a new born will be and turn out, how many people will she kill and will Jacob Black ever quit being a jerk and come back. Also how will the Wedding go with Alice, the over doer, organizing it? Will it be a perfect dream and will it be everything you dreamed of? Will Bella be able to be turned? Will the Jacob’s tribe allow it? What will the Cullens do if Jacob’s tribe will not allow the change? How will they by pass the treaty? Because it says that if anyone bites a human, one of the Cullens’ that is then the treaty is over even if it is halfway around the world. That Jacob’s tribe will be able to hunt with out bounds and will kill them. But if Edward does not turn Bella she will be killed by the Voulti. There are so many questions that need to be answered and that I want to have a happy ending. In another words, I want Edward and Bella to be together for eternity as vampire lovers. They deserve to be together, they have been through so much together. From almost dying for each other to losing the ‘light’ in their lives when Edward leaves Bella to Bella saving Edward by saving him from the Voulti to Edward and Bella making Jacob understand he is not the one for her. Their love is the truest of true loves. It spans time and space to the point of being a remarkable love story even if it is between a one hundred year old vampire, turned at the age of seventeen, and a seventeen year old human girl. They defy the odds and deserve to be together forever.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

My Depression Book-New Moon by Stephenie Meyer

Crying because of a stupid book, how stupid is that. I absolutely love the Twilight Saga books. But have a slight problem like the first two thirds of the book, to be exact. Edward breaking up with Bella was the worst possible idea ever. Stupid Edward. Stupid Vampire. Stupid Guy. This is one of the only books to ever make me cry. I feel so emotionally attached to Bella and Edward. Twilight made me fall in love with their love for each other. It breaks my heart to see them apart. This is the second time reading the full book, mainly because it is two difficult for me to read and have affect my mood for the worst. The books I read are very influential to the mood I am in or want to be in. I grow attachments for the characters in books because they are so easy for me to relate too. True I have never had a boyfriend or true love, but I have a devoted family and know what I want it life. I also know I will be there for whoever needs me, no matter what because that is what true friends are for, even if they are halfway across the world. Such as my best friend in Italy, I just hope she is not part of the Voulti. Lol jk. She has no idea what I am talking about because she has not read the series yet!! Nah Nah!! We will have a whole lot more to talk about when she finally reads them and ever gets on the internet!!! Lol. I just hope she is not ignoring me for a guy. :P That would just cause me to get more depressed than my book already had me. :P
Here this is what the start of the story is about… Just not the best part because it comes later at the last third of the book. That is what makes reading this book bearable. I remember when I first bought this book in New York I made my group, for the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade Performance 2006, go with me to many different bookstores to find a copy of this book because I had almost finished reading Twilight for the first time.
For Bella Swan, there is one thing more important than life itself: Edward Cullen. But being in love with a vampire is even more dangerous than Bella could ever have imagined. Edward has already rescued Bella from the clutches of one evil vampire, but now, as their daring relationship threatens all that is near and dear to them, they realize their troubles may be just beginning...

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Free Concerts

Free concerts are absolutely the best idea. Especially to go with the final four which is in town this weekend. If you do not know what that is it is the top college basketball teams from four districts, come together to go for the title. This year was especially amazing considering the final four was all the number one ranked teams in their four districts. It was hosted in San Antonio Texas this year. And we loved it more than you can imagine. But that is beside the point I am talking about the free concerts they hosted this year. Which included but not limited to Taylor Swift, the All American Rejects, and 3 doors Down. Taylor Swift was amazing, she is so well grounded and sweet. She said like every time after a song thank you San Antonio. She also gave great introductions to her songs as well as why it was written. She is sassy, let me tell you that, but cool. She also did this amazing number where she had two metal barrels and she had a pair of drum sticks so did the girl across from her. They started beating them in tune with each other and the music. It was amazing I loved it. I only wish I had gotten it on video. Next was the All American Rejects. Let me start off by sayin nick looked amazing. He is so hot. I got the picture I wanted, dreamed of, and almost died for well let’s just say trampled for. They sang my favorite song Stab My Back which I was thrilled about they also sang swing swing. It just made me want to go out and by more of their cds. I got some amazing pictures recordings and videos, I am thrilled to say. The All American Rejects also gave us a preview of the new song they are working on in the studios. They are also working on a new album. This was the first time they had ever preformed the song outside of the studio. They said they were thrilled to let San Antonio be the first to hear it and they hoped we liked. Which we did but we probably would anyway because I mean come on it is the All American Rejects we are talking about here, but it was more than amazing it was fantastic. I can’t wait to see them again.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Randomness

I love Goldfish. They are so yummy and delicious. They also remind me of my “lil sis”, Iz. She loves them more than anything in the world. She is so sweet too. I also have decided to give her a big box of them because she did not make Diamond Dancers like she wanted. But then again I did not make it two years in a row. Not including my soph year when I did not make Silver Stars. At least she made it for her soph year, which is better than me.
I started reading Twilight again, for like the 20 time, and am just noticing some things which is kind of pathetic if you think about it. I am also underlining my favorite quotes and drawing in my book. Having two copies of the book is never a bad idea when you love them as much as I do. They are the best books on the market today that you can buy. I am just very sad that this is going to be the last of the Bella Edward, Twilight Saga book. Twilight captured my imagination. New moon made me cry. Eclipse made me mad. Breaking Dawn will make me amazed. But Edward should just bite her already it is aggravating.
I love Whisper of the Heart it is an amazing movie. It is a lot of what I want in a movie. Definitely, Maybe was also a good movie. I thought it was one of the funniest and heart felt movies I had every saw. But this week I saw 21 Tuesday. That movie is more geared for men but it is a well rounded movie. I really did like it. The hot guy did not hurt it a bit at all either. Man was he perfect. Back to reality.
I hate looking at new homes it is aggravating. My mom and I like one style of house while my dad lieks others. He is not willing to meet us in the middle when we want it. I also hate well dislike his taste in houses. I don’t want a huge house or live on a hill or have a huge lawn. I want either a 1 story or 1 story with a loft. Just a place where I can hang out and read with out being interrupted, part of my dream home, a place for my books.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Crazy People

My main problem is the four earth-changing trend unprecedented in human history. The first one, on modern economic growth, I agree with because it does seem that the economic gap is widening. It could also be that some people are just giving up trying and are voting for their nation to become a “nanny state” meaning that they would not have to do anything for free money. But we can not do this because it would take away the democracy the U.S. The second, concerning world population seems accurate enough. People have more want than need of half of the things we throw away. The third, is the resources on earth. I agree that there has never been this many people on earth, and therefore we do not how we impact the planet. But we do not know for sure that we affect the climate. This is mainly in part to humans not being around for the lifespan of Earth. Who are we to say we are globally affecting the world and scaring people into a panic? A panic would not help the earth. Natural Resources are not re-newable therefore we do need to worry about them. But in the past the global climate was so warm in Europe that they could grow grapes. This is also the coldest winter on record for the world. The fourth, some of the poor people do not want to do any thing to help themselves. They would rather have people take care of them than do anything for themselves. Others want to help but most of them can get it if they find the right place.
I know this is just more of me ranting and raving about stuff but how can people say that global warming does exist and that we do affect it. This is just creating a panic to those who bother to listen. Those who listen tend to be the fanatics of the society. They are the crazy and usually believe anything that they are told. Are these really the people we want as President or in a position of power? *cough Al Gore Cough* Some are not giving proof with there announcements of Global Warming and who it is killing the world. Ahhh!!! Run and hide we are all going to die!!!! Ahhh!!! Wait that is my fate in the end any way so why panic? Is there really a point to panic?

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Misread

Okay so I feel bad because I did not post my promise. I promised my best friend, who lives in Italy, that I would post her horror well hilarious misread blunder. *shouts out HI AIMEE* First you need to know we are both obsessed with manga I read it and go how pretty . While she reads it and draws it, amazingly I might add. And I suggested her to read Kare First Love, and she did!! The plot is like well hold on let me think how to put this. Karin Karino (I love her name Karin it is so pretty) , a coy and self conscious high school student that has hardly ever paid any attention to boys. That is until she meets Aoi Kiriya one of the most popular students that attend the nearby boys’ school. As they began their relationship it faces many hardships from Karin’s jealous classmate Yuka who tries to sabotage the relationship from the beginning to family problems she learns that living happily ever after is not because of a education but because Aoi wants her. His life starts to revolve around her and hers around him.
Okay since I gave you some background back to the story. There is this one part n the book where it says . . . um. . . .it was where Kiriya is talking about his deep devotion to Karin to his friend. His friend is ragging on him.
Here is what my friend read:
“Lately you worked all the time, and didn’t spend any time with us. Can’t you hang out with us once in a while?”
Aoi: “No, I can’t. It’s my fault. Every time I go have fun, I think about her without intention to do so. That mwans I have to think about her everyday. I feel I’m masterbating. . .”
This was the total misread of a perfectly innocent phrase in the book.
The scene in the book went as follows:
“Lately you worked all the time, and didn’t spend any time with us. Can’t you hang out with us once in a while?”
Aoi: “No, I can’t. It’s my fault. Every time I go have fun, I think about her without intention to do so. That mwans I have to think about her everyday. I feel I’m mistreating her if I go on dates anyways. Therefore, I can’t do anything. And since I don’t want to see her yet, I think working all the time does me good.”
This was the most hilarious misread I have ever heard about but then again you might have needed to be there and have read the book to fully understand the misread. But that is beside the point I kept my promise and at least she will understand my lousy writing.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Change

Why does growing up always involve change? Why does change always amount to either good or bad? Why can’t change be the same like not growing apart to your closest friends or getting closer with friends you lost touch with? Change can be heal the heart and make you realize the dreams you lost and even remind you of who you truly are inside but then it can break your heart, and tear you apart from what you thought you wanted and make you lose something that you once held so dear. No I am not talking about a boy, but about people you consider family beside your family. The people I never had in life. I grew up with only my parents to cling to and to be my best friends. Don’t get me wrong I loved moving around but never truly developed any roots. And I am coming to realize it is better to move and have change every few years than it is to stay in the same place and develop roots. I made the mistake of trying too hard to hold on to the past and have seen some of my closest friends change. But I have also realized who my true friends are people who never forget you and love you for who you are. Jealousy hurts and I have seen people say why do you always have to have your parents approval you need to grow up but I cant and you will never understand it until you have it. My parents are my world, they are the people who have been there for my entire life and are always concerned about me. True friends are always concerned and always want to stay in touch no matter what the time or year. I mean I found a friend who I had not talked to in six years and we are talking like best friends within minutes of talking. This made me realize she was my best friend who never left me and who still knew me and remember me for who I was. She even helped to remind me of old dream and of who I really am even if she doesn’t know it yet. She is almost identically the person I would be if I hadn’t found my other best friend. The one I feel like should know but feel like I don’t anymore. I feel like we have grown apart but then again I think it might be me. I think it is the point that I have changed so much in the last month since we went to Wal-Mart. I have realized that I do have a niche at UTSA and that I am accepted somewhere and I thank them for that they have made me realize that it is not about if you feel accepted but if you see that you are and they don’t care about all the little things but the big things. Like who you are and who they see in you not who they want you to be or what they want you to here. They have also reminded me of who I want to be and who I am. I am also sorry to you guys if I judged you before I knew who you really were not that I will say who that is. But can you really trust the people who mean a lot to you but have changed into stuff you use to be able to over look but cant anymore. Or can you stand by while you watch them mess up their life even more. Or someone you think could die from what they are doing. And know that will be one of the hardest funerals you would ever have to go to. Someone who you love like a sister but cant do anything to stop the destruction. I would love to tell her but I can’t. She is my sister but I know she would take it to heart but would she listen or push it too far. She is already losing part of her mind and forgets almost everything and I can’t take it anymore cause what if she forgets when I need her most. I realize I can not stand by anymore and listen I have to tell her the truth no matter if I lose my best friend for life but maybe eventually she will understand and listen and still be there for me saying I know you were right and thank you for being there and caring enough to tell me.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Weekend

I hate my allergies that stink!!! I am sick beyond belief from them. I am allergic to so many plants rather than food. I hate pollens and allergens from plants. The worst time of year for me is this time and also is fall heading into winter. I get so sick during these times and there is like nothing I can do about it. I am so sick of it. I just want it to stop. Besides all of that jazz, I made a ton of money this week. I got two babysitting jobs. One with one of my regular’s two boys who are so funny! They love video games and we sat there playing my favorite game together for a few hours. It is called kingdom hearts. That game is awesome beyond belief. I also found out that they tell there parents they need to go out so that I can come babysit for them. Also that they “absolutely adore” me, which is awesome because I absolutely adore them too. But going on the second family I babysat for this week is a brand new family. This was my first time babysitting them and they have already asked me to babysit for them two more times in the next two weeks, well technically the same week. But those two kids are the smartest kids I have ever had the privileges of watching. They are brilliant. The girl is nine years old, she is creative beyond belief and she dances and is a cheerleader. The little boy is six, and he watches national geographic he also has the same if not better vocabulary as his sister. Which is amazing considered he learned to talk at the age of 3 when she did at like a year. But he is incredibly smart he already knows about echolocation in whales, dolphins and bats. He wants to be a meteorologist and she wants to be a Nasa Rocket engineer and study Egypt. This is an amazing ambition at her age. I am thoroughly impressed. She also knows everything about space you could possibly know. She also already knows that Pluto is a planetoid and not a planet. She gave me a full scientific synopsis of it too. They were the most confident and sweetest and smartest children I have ever known. I can not wait to go over there again and see them.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Corpus Christi

I had the most fun last weekend. My family and I took a trip to Corpus Christi. We had a season pass to the Corpus Christi Science and History Museum. During the month of February our pass was good for numerous attractions the U.S.S. Lexington, Texas State Aquarium, Corpus Christi Art Museum, Asian Cultural Museum, the Botanical Gardens, and, of course, the Corpus Christi Science and History Museum too.
We drove down with our two yorkies, Sassy and Stormy, to the La Quinta in Corpus Christi. Where we checked in and dropped off the yorks before we headed off to our first stop of the day. We started to go to the Aquarium but before that we stopped to eat at Pier 99. They have the best seafood or so I am told by my parents. I do not really like seafood. I was told I did not like it before I got hepatitis A at the age of three but that I would eat it anyway. Since the hepatitis I have not been to anxious to eat seafood unless I know who made it and that it was not contaminated by anything. Like how my mom makes blackened red fish or blackened catfish. But that is all beside the point it was fun. Unfortunately, the salad I ordered came with broccoli in it and I hate broccoli. It is too green and looks, tastes, and breaks funny. It is all over just yuck to me. I know I am particular or so my parents tell me. I rarely eat any vegetables except like salad stuff, and I mean simple salad fixings nothing real special, and green bean casserole and occasionally some really good corn on the cob. YUMMY!! But anyways it was fun and afterwards you can write a note and stick it under the clear table top. I guess it is so you literally leave your mark on Corpus Christi, Texas. If you are from far away like Canada or something but us not wanting to look like tourists opted out. This was mainly because we had done it on an earlier trip there. He He. Locals yea right.
The dolphins were amazing we also saw some wild dolphins while we were at the aquarium. We should I say a mother and calf following a shrimp boat. Man that would be a cool life on the ocean everyday. I Love the ocean.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Twilight the movie

This might be the biggest mistake of any movie director. Taking on the infamous book Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. Twilight is the dream of every girl who has ever had the pleasure to read it. They have cast to actors who are iffy on the part. They only partial look like what people have imagined. They also are changing the story up more than any one is happy with.
“He throws me over his back [in one scene], right before he’s going to tell me that he’s a vampire, and then he runs over the treetops.” First of all he is not suppose to tell her he is a vampire. Bella is suppose to learn that by herself. Which is the whole point of the first five or six chapters of the book. So basically there goes the first good parts of the book with his dirty looks. Second Edward is not suppose to run over the tree tops. He has to run through the woods not over them. Why do they have to change so many pivotal points in the book. It just takes away from the story even more. If you are an obsessed fan (like I am then you are going to be ticked off by it) it is going to be harder for you to accept it. So why oh why must you change a good thing. You are risking everything based on the series, many of movies, on changing pivotal things in a descent well amazing book.
It also sounds like she has never read the books before which I find horrible. If you are going to play a part you need to at least be familiar with the book it is based on. It just aggravates me how little she teams to know about the best book ever written.
I am willing to give it a try and I will probably by the movie even if I do not agree with some of the scenes in it. But everything deserves at least one chance and probably at least one second chance to impress you again. So I will try not to bash there picks or sets until I see the finished project. I still have high hopes for it no matter what though. The book has set the bar high so lets hope it can reach that point . I love twilight and hope I love the movie version too.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Adoption Day

So obviously my last post did not work nor did it save. Therefore here it is again or for the first time either way you want to look at it.
Friday:
I went to Wal-Mart and met Robert Horry. He signed a basket ball for me and also my family and I got a picture with him. It was hilarious because he called my mom shorty. She is only 4’11”, she took it light heartedly. But her face was one of denial and shock. My dad and I cracked up laughing afterward.
Saturday:
I got to wake up to adoption day. It is a holiday my parents and I celebrate because it was the first day I was adopted 18 years ago and it is also the day I officially became a member of the family, at least according to the Gov’t. After we woke up at nine I got to open my presents. I got the present I had been dying for so bad. It was Bella’s bracelet from eclipse. It has a wolf on one end that represents Jacob Black, Bella’s other love but not her main one. The other is a crystal heart, a hand me down from Edward, Bella’s true soulmate. As Edward puts it, my heart is just as still, cold and all yours. It also throws sparkles into the light. This line and the reason behind it just made me feel so good about reading and buying the books. They are the best ever!!!! Then we went to the movie the eye. It was good but not as scary as I would of liked. We then went to the half price books and got so many different movies. Red Eye, Pride and Prejudice as seen on tv, Friends season 7, terminator 3, dolphin poster, and a cd.
I might as well include Sunday since I can.
Sunday:
So today I worked on that paper for writing. Then went to Wal-Mart 865, and helped my dad with his powerpoint for work. I then went shopping their I got to finally get Underworld and Underworld Evolution. Along with shoes, pork loin for a cook out, and eye glass cleaner for my new glasses, which I got Friday I might add. They are very pretty black plastic half frames with little crystal like stones on the sides. Then I came home studied for the economics test, watched the patriots lose and re-wrote my blog.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Twilight

After arriving “home” with Charlie, Bella proceeds to move all of her stuff into the house on this “alien planet.” It took her all of one trip to move all of her stuff in. When she got up to her room she realized none of it had changed, except for the crib changing into a bed and her dad adding a desk. As the afternoon turned into evening, Bella began to think about and dreaded the coming morning when she would attend Forks High School. She would be the new kid from the city, of Chief Swan’s flighty wife, and an oddity to all. She did not have the typical look of someone from Arizona. She was an albino with dark hair and dark eyes. As Bella her self describes it:
“I didn’t relate well to people my age. Maybe the truth was that I didn’t relate well to people, period. Even my mother, who I was closer to than anyone else on the planet, was never in harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain. “
“But the cause didn’t matter. All the mattered was the effect. And tomorrow would be just the beginning.”
The following morning after a restless sleep, even after crying, Bella quietly went down stairs to eat breakfast and be on her way to school. On her way to school she contemplates how she will be at school. Like a novelty, of course, but hopefully as someone people can befriend. When she arrives Bella immediately notices that the school looks more like a bunch of tiny houses rather than a school. There are many small red bricked buildings in a cluster rather than a few large buildings. Once on campus, Bella carefully notes there are no metal detectors or gates, she drives to a building labeled Front Office in order to receive directions to the parking lot and her classes. Once in the building she meets an older lady named, Ms. Cope, she is the receptionist at Forks High School. Ms. Cope brings out a map in order to show Bella where her classes are located and the easiest route to take in order to get there on time.
Bella’s First Day next.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Twilight

Twilight may sound like a reference dusk to some while to others it has a totally different meaning and defenition. Twilight by Stephenie Meyer is the first of four known books in the Twilight Series. The books time line is mainly in the present but it has many refernces to the past. These past referensces are not like a "let's go back in time as that person" but more of a person's history.

Twilight centers around two main caracters named Isabella "Bella" Swan and Edward Cullen. Bella is a normal, human teenage girl who moves to Forks, Washington to live with her dad, Charlie, in order to let her mother, Renee, travel around with her Phil, Renee's new husband. Bella absolutely despises Forks. Forks is a small town located on the Oympic Pennsula.