Wow that was intense....On a lighter note....life has picked up for me... I have finally realized what it means to have true friends. They are people who are always there for you before you need them and willing to drop anything to help you out. I had always been that kind of friend but really found anyone willing to do that for me. I have also come to realize that the best of friends want you for you craziness and antics rather than just brains and smarts. Thought I would post that tiny realization to lighten the mood after my last post.....
Thursday, November 27, 2008
What needs to be said....
I just got to thinking about my friend. A few months back I wrote a post about it and here I am again thinking about it. Change.....Change happens but not in the way we want it to, like winning the lottery or winning a house. But like losing a beloved pet or a friendship. Change is inevitable. I love how I have changed in the course of this one year. There are people in my life now that I would not trade for anything. They have shown me what I have missed out on for the last couple of years. They have also shown me what it is like to be carefree and not a crutch to someone else. They don't depend on me all the time but have a shoulder ready for me to cry on if I need it. We are all strong and independent but awesome together.
*******~
This is who I am, who I have become. I just hope you can find out who you truly are and what you want to do with your life. I cannot condone what you are doing but you needed to hear this. You have screwed up your own life and need to change what you are doing. Drugs, drinking, sex and quitting school is not the answer you have to stop. Until you do I cannot be around you anymore. I will miss our friendship but I know it is for the best. If you ever need me contact me but don't subject me to being a crutch again. I don't deserve it and you know that. I maybe the only voice of reason that you hear in your life, I may also be the only one you will take to heart. You were like my sister and kills me to see you doing this to yourself. I was asked earlier this year to write a paper on drug addiction is a choice. Right after I found out that you were back into drugs. I wrote the paper and my professor realized something was wrong. I was told it was some of my worst work when I said it was a little to personal, that my best friend was back into them I got a pass. It has hurt me that I could never tell you this straight out but I AM DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. I DON"T CARE IF I SOUND LIKE A MOTHER!!! This is how I feel and what you need to hear. I would not needed it spelled out for me but a few weeks ago I was told by an old friend that I had changed and that it suited me. I understood what they were saying and kept the changes. But if I had been told the opposite I would have flat out asked what is not right, unlike you. It tore me to shreds, bearing all of the weight of what you were doing and knowing that you had stopped listening to me. I can't lie or hide it anymore. My life was suffering while I was your crutch. Now my life has taken off since we quit talking and I wanted you to know I still care but that you have to deal with some issues yourself. Only you can change but if you don't want to that is fine. Just don't end up dead in a ditch somewhere, and believe me that is where you are headed. So that was all I had to say now deal with me.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
I found these random thngs and thought how true.....
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month. A best friend will throw you a tampon and push you in.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome!
Let's do it again!"
A conversation between a girl and her boyfriend: (I just thought it was sweet)
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: no
Girl: Do you think I'm pretty
Boy: no
Girl: which would you chose me or you life?
Boy: my life
Girl: If I were to walk away would you cry?
Boy: no
Girl: I heard enough
as she turns to walk away her boyfriend grabs her and says:
I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I would chose my life because you ARE my life and if you would walk away i wouldn't cry i would DIE!
(What every girl wants well at least me)
Find the guy that calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who'll lay under the stars for hours and listen to your heart beat.
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy that kisses your forehead,
who keeps your picture in his wallet,
who wants to show you off to the world even when your in sweatpants,
who holds your hand in front of all his freinds,
who thinks your beautiful without makeup,
one who is constantly telling you of how much he cares and how is lucky to have you,
THE one who turns to his friends and says THATS HER!
If he really exists, then WHY CAN'T I FIND HIM?A good or best friend!
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month. A best friend will throw you a tampon and push you in.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome!
Let's do it again!"
A conversation between a girl and her boyfriend:
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: no
Girl: Do you think I'm pretty
Boy: no
Girl: which would you chose me or you life?
Boy: my life
Girl: If I were to walk away would you cry?
Boy: no
Girl: I heard enough
as she turns to walk away her boyfriend grabs her and says:
I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I would chose my life because you ARE my life and if you would walk away i wouldn't cry i would DIE!
Find the guy that calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who'll lay under the stars for hours and listen to your heart beat.
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy that kisses your forehead,
who keeps your picture in his wallet,
who wants to show you off to the world even when your in sweatpants,
who holds your hand in front of all his freinds,
who thinks your beautiful without makeup,
one who is constantly telling you of how much he cares and how is lucky to have you,
THE one who turns to his friends and says THATS HER!
If he really exists, then WHY CAN'T I FIND HIM?A good or best friend!
A good friend will comfort you when he rejects you. A best friend will go up and ask him, "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"
A good friend will be there for you when he breaks up with you. A best friend will call him up and whisper, "Seven days..."
A good friend helps you up when you fall. A best friend keeps on walking saying, "Walk much, dumb ass?"
A good friend helps you find your prince. A best friend kidnaps him and brings him to you.
A good friend will ask you if you're okay when you're crying. A best friend will laugh at you and say, "Ha Ha, Loser!"
A good friend will offer you a soda. A best friend will dump theirs on you.
A good friend will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month. A best friend will throw you a tampon and push you in.
A good friend gives you their umbrella in the rain. A best friend takes yours and says, "Run - beep - run!"
A good friend will help you move. A best friend will help you move the bodies.
A good friend will bail you out of jail. A best friend would be in the room next to you saying, "That was awesome!
Let's do it again!"
A conversation between a girl and her boyfriend:
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: no
Girl: Do you think I'm pretty
Boy: no
Girl: which would you chose me or you life?
Boy: my life
Girl: If I were to walk away would you cry?
Boy: no
Girl: I heard enough
as she turns to walk away her boyfriend grabs her and says:
I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I would chose my life because you ARE my life and if you would walk away i wouldn't cry i would DIE!
Find the guy that calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who'll lay under the stars for hours and listen to your heart beat.
Or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy that kisses your forehead,
who keeps your picture in his wallet,
who wants to show you off to the world even when your in sweatpants,
who holds your hand in front of all his freinds,
who thinks your beautiful without makeup,
one who is constantly telling you of how much he cares and how is lucky to have you,
THE one who turns to his friends and says THATS HER!
If he really exists, then WHY CAN'T I FIND HIM?
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
Me Ranting and Raving
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Story
Please do not take it and call it your own.
What is going on? Who are these people? They just expect us to trust them immediately and do whatever they say to do? I absolutely hate people who refuse to answer my questions. Especially when my questions are so easily answered, with only a this or that. I can’t be expected to believe every person who comes into contact with me. How could I trust three strange men who just happened to show up inside my apartment? I sighed, Taylor was right I really had to stop watching CSI all the time, but it was like a late night addiction now. When ever I couldn’t sleep I would pop in the DVD and watch one episode, every single time I did I was reminded of the month Tay had ‘grounded’ me from watching it. Just because I worried to much meant nothing, she shouldn’t have left her phone behind. It was funny watching her reaction to my substitute show, Firefly. I had turned the volume up so loud the first night that she thought we were being shot at. She ran through the apartment in her pajamas, screaming “we are going to die. Who did you kill this time? I didn’t do it! The mafia is after me! Help me!” She eventually ran all the way to the courtyard by the fountains, where she finally stopped and turned glaringly back at me. I was laughing so hard, that I about fell down the stairs. Tay refused to talk to me for a whole two days, while everyone teased her about it. Needless to say I had a volume limit enforced on everything I watched.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I wonder...
Maybe I am just overthinking as usual but then again maybe I am paranoid. I do tend to rant and rave about stupid things for a while. Oh Well!!! This is me freaking out....as usual.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Random thoughts and Wishing
Twilight, yes I know I mention that book every blog almost but it is my most favorite-est book in the whole wide world. I am officially by my asfaawbffe or best friend, called an obsessed fan Bella. And she is hence forth known as Alice the ummm….well I am still working that little part out. But I promise to figure it out for my sake and for my sanity. At least I need some resemblance of sanity.
This past week was so much fun. I go to spend most of it with my family, who I love so much that includes my two dogs and one cat.
I love to see movies and I can not wait for, you can probably guess it, Twilight to come out on Dec. 12, 2008. The trailer for Twilight the movie, will be or should be released next week May 9, 2008 before the movie Speedracer. But I am hoping beyond hope that the preview trailer will be shown at the sneak peek of Speedracer. It would make my life complete for like 3 minutes and make me feel perfect. That would be amazing when it happens for me I love twilight. Twilight is like oxygen I need it to live!!!! Lol I find that amusingly awesome.
“Time Passes. Even when it seems Impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls. But pass it does. Even for me.” Bella Swan from New Moon written by Stephenie Meyer.
This book is also known as my depression book. Lol. Mainly because I feel what Bella is feeling because I am so entranced by the beautiful writing.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Hmmmmm
Saturday, April 12, 2008
My Depression Book-New Moon by Stephenie Meyer
Here this is what the start of the story is about… Just not the best part because it comes later at the last third of the book. That is what makes reading this book bearable. I remember when I first bought this book in New York I made my group, for the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade Performance 2006, go with me to many different bookstores to find a copy of this book because I had almost finished reading Twilight for the first time.
For Bella Swan, there is one thing more important than life itself: Edward Cullen. But being in love with a vampire is even more dangerous than Bella could ever have imagined. Edward has already rescued Bella from the clutches of one evil vampire, but now, as their daring relationship threatens all that is near and dear to them, they realize their troubles may be just beginning...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Free Concerts
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Randomness
I started reading Twilight again, for like the 20 time, and am just noticing some things which is kind of pathetic if you think about it. I am also underlining my favorite quotes and drawing in my book. Having two copies of the book is never a bad idea when you love them as much as I do. They are the best books on the market today that you can buy. I am just very sad that this is going to be the last of the Bella Edward, Twilight Saga book. Twilight captured my imagination. New moon made me cry. Eclipse made me mad. Breaking Dawn will make me amazed. But Edward should just bite her already it is aggravating.
I love Whisper of the Heart it is an amazing movie. It is a lot of what I want in a movie. Definitely, Maybe was also a good movie. I thought it was one of the funniest and heart felt movies I had every saw. But this week I saw 21 Tuesday. That movie is more geared for men but it is a well rounded movie. I really did like it. The hot guy did not hurt it a bit at all either. Man was he perfect. Back to reality.
I hate looking at new homes it is aggravating. My mom and I like one style of house while my dad lieks others. He is not willing to meet us in the middle when we want it. I also hate well dislike his taste in houses. I don’t want a huge house or live on a hill or have a huge lawn. I want either a 1 story or 1 story with a loft. Just a place where I can hang out and read with out being interrupted, part of my dream home, a place for my books.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Crazy People
I know this is just more of me ranting and raving about stuff but how can people say that global warming does exist and that we do affect it. This is just creating a panic to those who bother to listen. Those who listen tend to be the fanatics of the society. They are the crazy and usually believe anything that they are told. Are these really the people we want as President or in a position of power? *cough Al Gore Cough* Some are not giving proof with there announcements of Global Warming and who it is killing the world. Ahhh!!! Run and hide we are all going to die!!!! Ahhh!!! Wait that is my fate in the end any way so why panic? Is there really a point to panic?
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Misread
Okay since I gave you some background back to the story. There is this one part n the book where it says . . . um. . . .it was where Kiriya is talking about his deep devotion to Karin to his friend. His friend is ragging on him.
Here is what my friend read:
“Lately you worked all the time, and didn’t spend any time with us. Can’t you hang out with us once in a while?”
Aoi: “No, I can’t. It’s my fault. Every time I go have fun, I think about her without intention to do so. That mwans I have to think about her everyday. I feel I’m masterbating. . .”
This was the total misread of a perfectly innocent phrase in the book.
The scene in the book went as follows:
“Lately you worked all the time, and didn’t spend any time with us. Can’t you hang out with us once in a while?”
Aoi: “No, I can’t. It’s my fault. Every time I go have fun, I think about her without intention to do so. That mwans I have to think about her everyday. I feel I’m mistreating her if I go on dates anyways. Therefore, I can’t do anything. And since I don’t want to see her yet, I think working all the time does me good.”
This was the most hilarious misread I have ever heard about but then again you might have needed to be there and have read the book to fully understand the misread. But that is beside the point I kept my promise and at least she will understand my lousy writing.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Change
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Weekend
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Corpus Christi
We drove down with our two yorkies, Sassy and Stormy, to the La Quinta in Corpus Christi. Where we checked in and dropped off the yorks before we headed off to our first stop of the day. We started to go to the Aquarium but before that we stopped to eat at Pier 99. They have the best seafood or so I am told by my parents. I do not really like seafood. I was told I did not like it before I got hepatitis A at the age of three but that I would eat it anyway. Since the hepatitis I have not been to anxious to eat seafood unless I know who made it and that it was not contaminated by anything. Like how my mom makes blackened red fish or blackened catfish. But that is all beside the point it was fun. Unfortunately, the salad I ordered came with broccoli in it and I hate broccoli. It is too green and looks, tastes, and breaks funny. It is all over just yuck to me. I know I am particular or so my parents tell me. I rarely eat any vegetables except like salad stuff, and I mean simple salad fixings nothing real special, and green bean casserole and occasionally some really good corn on the cob. YUMMY!! But anyways it was fun and afterwards you can write a note and stick it under the clear table top. I guess it is so you literally leave your mark on Corpus Christi, Texas. If you are from far away like Canada or something but us not wanting to look like tourists opted out. This was mainly because we had done it on an earlier trip there. He He. Locals yea right.
The dolphins were amazing we also saw some wild dolphins while we were at the aquarium. We should I say a mother and calf following a shrimp boat. Man that would be a cool life on the ocean everyday. I Love the ocean.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Twilight the movie
“He throws me over his back [in one scene], right before he’s going to tell me that he’s a vampire, and then he runs over the treetops.” First of all he is not suppose to tell her he is a vampire. Bella is suppose to learn that by herself. Which is the whole point of the first five or six chapters of the book. So basically there goes the first good parts of the book with his dirty looks. Second Edward is not suppose to run over the tree tops. He has to run through the woods not over them. Why do they have to change so many pivotal points in the book. It just takes away from the story even more. If you are an obsessed fan (like I am then you are going to be ticked off by it) it is going to be harder for you to accept it. So why oh why must you change a good thing. You are risking everything based on the series, many of movies, on changing pivotal things in a descent well amazing book.
It also sounds like she has never read the books before which I find horrible. If you are going to play a part you need to at least be familiar with the book it is based on. It just aggravates me how little she teams to know about the best book ever written.
I am willing to give it a try and I will probably by the movie even if I do not agree with some of the scenes in it. But everything deserves at least one chance and probably at least one second chance to impress you again. So I will try not to bash there picks or sets until I see the finished project. I still have high hopes for it no matter what though. The book has set the bar high so lets hope it can reach that point . I love twilight and hope I love the movie version too.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Adoption Day
Friday:
I went to Wal-Mart and met Robert Horry. He signed a basket ball for me and also my family and I got a picture with him. It was hilarious because he called my mom shorty. She is only 4’11”, she took it light heartedly. But her face was one of denial and shock. My dad and I cracked up laughing afterward.
Saturday:
I got to wake up to adoption day. It is a holiday my parents and I celebrate because it was the first day I was adopted 18 years ago and it is also the day I officially became a member of the family, at least according to the Gov’t. After we woke up at nine I got to open my presents. I got the present I had been dying for so bad. It was Bella’s bracelet from eclipse. It has a wolf on one end that represents Jacob Black, Bella’s other love but not her main one. The other is a crystal heart, a hand me down from Edward, Bella’s true soulmate. As Edward puts it, my heart is just as still, cold and all yours. It also throws sparkles into the light. This line and the reason behind it just made me feel so good about reading and buying the books. They are the best ever!!!! Then we went to the movie the eye. It was good but not as scary as I would of liked. We then went to the half price books and got so many different movies. Red Eye, Pride and Prejudice as seen on tv, Friends season 7, terminator 3, dolphin poster, and a cd.
I might as well include Sunday since I can.
Sunday:
So today I worked on that paper for writing. Then went to Wal-Mart 865, and helped my dad with his powerpoint for work. I then went shopping their I got to finally get Underworld and Underworld Evolution. Along with shoes, pork loin for a cook out, and eye glass cleaner for my new glasses, which I got Friday I might add. They are very pretty black plastic half frames with little crystal like stones on the sides. Then I came home studied for the economics test, watched the patriots lose and re-wrote my blog.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Twilight
“I didn’t relate well to people my age. Maybe the truth was that I didn’t relate well to people, period. Even my mother, who I was closer to than anyone else on the planet, was never in harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain. “
“But the cause didn’t matter. All the mattered was the effect. And tomorrow would be just the beginning.”
The following morning after a restless sleep, even after crying, Bella quietly went down stairs to eat breakfast and be on her way to school. On her way to school she contemplates how she will be at school. Like a novelty, of course, but hopefully as someone people can befriend. When she arrives Bella immediately notices that the school looks more like a bunch of tiny houses rather than a school. There are many small red bricked buildings in a cluster rather than a few large buildings. Once on campus, Bella carefully notes there are no metal detectors or gates, she drives to a building labeled Front Office in order to receive directions to the parking lot and her classes. Once in the building she meets an older lady named, Ms. Cope, she is the receptionist at Forks High School. Ms. Cope brings out a map in order to show Bella where her classes are located and the easiest route to take in order to get there on time.
Bella’s First Day next.
