Randomness

I love Goldfish. They are so yummy and delicious. They also remind me of my “lil sis”, Iz. She loves them more than anything in the world. She is so sweet too. I also have decided to give her a big box of them because she did not make Diamond Dancers like she wanted. But then again I did not make it two years in a row. Not including my soph year when I did not make Silver Stars. At least she made it for her soph year, which is better than me.
I started reading Twilight again, for like the 20 time, and am just noticing some things which is kind of pathetic if you think about it. I am also underlining my favorite quotes and drawing in my book. Having two copies of the book is never a bad idea when you love them as much as I do. They are the best books on the market today that you can buy. I am just very sad that this is going to be the last of the Bella Edward, Twilight Saga book. Twilight captured my imagination. New moon made me cry. Eclipse made me mad. Breaking Dawn will make me amazed. But Edward should just bite her already it is aggravating.
I love Whisper of the Heart it is an amazing movie. It is a lot of what I want in a movie. Definitely, Maybe was also a good movie. I thought it was one of the funniest and heart felt movies I had every saw. But this week I saw 21 Tuesday. That movie is more geared for men but it is a well rounded movie. I really did like it. The hot guy did not hurt it a bit at all either. Man was he perfect. Back to reality.
I hate looking at new homes it is aggravating. My mom and I like one style of house while my dad lieks others. He is not willing to meet us in the middle when we want it. I also hate well dislike his taste in houses. I don’t want a huge house or live on a hill or have a huge lawn. I want either a 1 story or 1 story with a loft. Just a place where I can hang out and read with out being interrupted, part of my dream home, a place for my books.

Crazy People

My main problem is the four earth-changing trend unprecedented in human history. The first one, on modern economic growth, I agree with because it does seem that the economic gap is widening. It could also be that some people are just giving up trying and are voting for their nation to become a “nanny state” meaning that they would not have to do anything for free money. But we can not do this because it would take away the democracy the U.S. The second, concerning world population seems accurate enough. People have more want than need of half of the things we throw away. The third, is the resources on earth. I agree that there has never been this many people on earth, and therefore we do not how we impact the planet. But we do not know for sure that we affect the climate. This is mainly in part to humans not being around for the lifespan of Earth. Who are we to say we are globally affecting the world and scaring people into a panic? A panic would not help the earth. Natural Resources are not re-newable therefore we do need to worry about them. But in the past the global climate was so warm in Europe that they could grow grapes. This is also the coldest winter on record for the world. The fourth, some of the poor people do not want to do any thing to help themselves. They would rather have people take care of them than do anything for themselves. Others want to help but most of them can get it if they find the right place.
I know this is just more of me ranting and raving about stuff but how can people say that global warming does exist and that we do affect it. This is just creating a panic to those who bother to listen. Those who listen tend to be the fanatics of the society. They are the crazy and usually believe anything that they are told. Are these really the people we want as President or in a position of power? *cough Al Gore Cough* Some are not giving proof with there announcements of Global Warming and who it is killing the world. Ahhh!!! Run and hide we are all going to die!!!! Ahhh!!! Wait that is my fate in the end any way so why panic? Is there really a point to panic?

Misread

Okay so I feel bad because I did not post my promise. I promised my best friend, who lives in Italy, that I would post her horror well hilarious misread blunder. *shouts out HI AIMEE* First you need to know we are both obsessed with manga I read it and go how pretty . While she reads it and draws it, amazingly I might add. And I suggested her to read Kare First Love, and she did!! The plot is like well hold on let me think how to put this. Karin Karino (I love her name Karin it is so pretty) , a coy and self conscious high school student that has hardly ever paid any attention to boys. That is until she meets Aoi Kiriya one of the most popular students that attend the nearby boys’ school. As they began their relationship it faces many hardships from Karin’s jealous classmate Yuka who tries to sabotage the relationship from the beginning to family problems she learns that living happily ever after is not because of a education but because Aoi wants her. His life starts to revolve around her and hers around him.
Okay since I gave you some background back to the story. There is this one part n the book where it says . . . um. . . .it was where Kiriya is talking about his deep devotion to Karin to his friend. His friend is ragging on him.
Here is what my friend read:
“Lately you worked all the time, and didn’t spend any time with us. Can’t you hang out with us once in a while?”
Aoi: “No, I can’t. It’s my fault. Every time I go have fun, I think about her without intention to do so. That mwans I have to think about her everyday. I feel I’m masterbating. . .”
This was the total misread of a perfectly innocent phrase in the book.
The scene in the book went as follows:
“Lately you worked all the time, and didn’t spend any time with us. Can’t you hang out with us once in a while?”
Aoi: “No, I can’t. It’s my fault. Every time I go have fun, I think about her without intention to do so. That mwans I have to think about her everyday. I feel I’m mistreating her if I go on dates anyways. Therefore, I can’t do anything. And since I don’t want to see her yet, I think working all the time does me good.”
This was the most hilarious misread I have ever heard about but then again you might have needed to be there and have read the book to fully understand the misread. But that is beside the point I kept my promise and at least she will understand my lousy writing.

Change

Why does growing up always involve change? Why does change always amount to either good or bad? Why can’t change be the same like not growing apart to your closest friends or getting closer with friends you lost touch with? Change can be heal the heart and make you realize the dreams you lost and even remind you of who you truly are inside but then it can break your heart, and tear you apart from what you thought you wanted and make you lose something that you once held so dear. No I am not talking about a boy, but about people you consider family beside your family. The people I never had in life. I grew up with only my parents to cling to and to be my best friends. Don’t get me wrong I loved moving around but never truly developed any roots. And I am coming to realize it is better to move and have change every few years than it is to stay in the same place and develop roots. I made the mistake of trying too hard to hold on to the past and have seen some of my closest friends change. But I have also realized who my true friends are people who never forget you and love you for who you are. Jealousy hurts and I have seen people say why do you always have to have your parents approval you need to grow up but I cant and you will never understand it until you have it. My parents are my world, they are the people who have been there for my entire life and are always concerned about me. True friends are always concerned and always want to stay in touch no matter what the time or year. I mean I found a friend who I had not talked to in six years and we are talking like best friends within minutes of talking. This made me realize she was my best friend who never left me and who still knew me and remember me for who I was. She even helped to remind me of old dream and of who I really am even if she doesn’t know it yet. She is almost identically the person I would be if I hadn’t found my other best friend. The one I feel like should know but feel like I don’t anymore. I feel like we have grown apart but then again I think it might be me. I think it is the point that I have changed so much in the last month since we went to Wal-Mart. I have realized that I do have a niche at UTSA and that I am accepted somewhere and I thank them for that they have made me realize that it is not about if you feel accepted but if you see that you are and they don’t care about all the little things but the big things. Like who you are and who they see in you not who they want you to be or what they want you to here. They have also reminded me of who I want to be and who I am. I am also sorry to you guys if I judged you before I knew who you really were not that I will say who that is. But can you really trust the people who mean a lot to you but have changed into stuff you use to be able to over look but cant anymore. Or can you stand by while you watch them mess up their life even more. Or someone you think could die from what they are doing. And know that will be one of the hardest funerals you would ever have to go to. Someone who you love like a sister but cant do anything to stop the destruction. I would love to tell her but I can’t. She is my sister but I know she would take it to heart but would she listen or push it too far. She is already losing part of her mind and forgets almost everything and I can’t take it anymore cause what if she forgets when I need her most. I realize I can not stand by anymore and listen I have to tell her the truth no matter if I lose my best friend for life but maybe eventually she will understand and listen and still be there for me saying I know you were right and thank you for being there and caring enough to tell me.