On a lighter note

Wow that was intense....On a lighter note....life has picked up for me... I have finally realized what it means to have true friends.  They are people who are always there for you before you need them and willing to drop anything to help you out.  I had always been that kind of friend but really found anyone willing to do that for me.  I have also come to realize that the best of friends want you for you craziness and antics rather than just brains and smarts.  Thought I would post that tiny realization to lighten the mood after my last post.....

What needs to be said....

I just got to thinking about my friend.  A few months back I wrote a post about it and here I am again thinking about it.  Change.....Change happens but not in the way we want it to, like winning the lottery or winning a house.  But like losing a beloved pet or a friendship.  Change is inevitable.  I love how I have changed in the course of this one year.  There are people in my life now that I would not trade for anything.  They have shown me what I have missed out on for the last couple of years.  They have also shown me what it is like to be carefree and not a crutch to someone else.  They don't depend on me all the time but have a shoulder ready for me to cry on if I need it.  We are all strong and independent but awesome together.

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This is who I am, who I have become.  I just hope you can find out who you truly are and what you want to do with your life.  I cannot condone what you are doing but you needed to hear this.  You have screwed up your own life and need to change what you are doing.  Drugs, drinking, sex and quitting school is not the answer you have to stop.  Until you do I cannot be around you anymore.  I will miss our friendship but I know it is for the best.  If you ever need me contact me but don't subject me to being a crutch again.  I don't deserve it and you know that.  I maybe the only voice of reason that you hear in your life, I may also be the only one you will take to heart.  You were like my sister and kills me to see you doing this to yourself.  I was asked earlier this year to write a paper on drug addiction is a choice.  Right after I found out that you were back into drugs.  I wrote the paper and my professor realized something was wrong.  I was told it was some of my worst work when I said it was a little to personal, that my best friend was back into them I got a pass.  It has hurt me that I could never tell you this straight out but I AM DISAPPOINTED IN  YOU.  I DON"T CARE IF I SOUND LIKE A MOTHER!!!  This is how I feel and what you need to hear.  I would not needed it spelled out for me but a few weeks ago I was told by an old friend that I had changed and that it suited me.  I understood what they were saying and kept the changes.  But if I had been told the opposite I would have flat out asked what is not right, unlike you.  It tore me to shreds, bearing all of the weight of what you were doing and knowing that you had stopped listening to me.  I can't lie or hide it anymore.  My life was suffering while I was your crutch.  Now my life has taken off since we quit talking and I wanted you to know I still care but that you have to deal with some issues yourself.  Only you can change but if you don't want to that is fine.  Just don't end up dead in a ditch somewhere, and believe me that is where you are headed.   So that was all I had to say now deal with me.

Life is amazing. I have recently posted two on going stories on fictionpress.com!!! I love the stories but am not entirely sure if anyone else will. This is my first post in a few months, and I feel a bit ridiculous for forgetting this blogspot!! lol. If you want to check out my stories go to http://www.fictionpress.com/~thedolphinsmermaid and scroll down to the bottom and click on to read. If you want to read one please leave a review. I would be enormously greatful considering it is my birthday Saturday!!!

Anyways on with the post:

Why is it that people need to put others down in order to feel good about themselves? It is incredibly pointless. Life is not always about negatives it is about positives. People need to learn to see the light not always the darkness. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Always remember that. Even in the darkest of times there is a ray of hope. I know I sound too optimistic for usual but I am glad to have found something that makes me incredibly happy. Writing is starting to mean more to me than alot has in along time. It is a new way of expression for me, it makes me feel like I can do something right.

I hope that I will be able to create dramatic scenes, like a scene where a girl finds out something big and runs and keeps running until she gets to some place secret. Then the guy knows the exact place and goes to see her and fix it.